Shepardic

The same feeling after all these years

A hillside like a grooved step beneath the swirling stars

My footfalls pushing the orb around its axle

Heaven palpable in its clear-eyed journey

Sending my head spinning with hope


The hardest part is waiting

Crook cradled in the crook of my arm

Ears tuned to galactic harmonies

Is that a ewe's cry or angelic refrain?

I remember how the messengers smelled when they sang to me

Snuffed candles and nutmeg and marshland silt


Yes, the hardest part is waiting

Worse after a taste of the otherworldy

Too many years since the god-man-child howled in the stable

I thought I knew patience then

The endless nights waiting for the spring lamb to come

For the mouths to eat their fill

For the haunches to fatten

For the bleating call to raise me from half-slumber


Can you understand the desperate null of a life once touched by the Most High?

Only the very old or very wise should be shown such wonders

What am I to make of all the nights since

When no hosts filled the sky with song

And the earth did not shake

And the baby mewling in the poor quarters was just a baby?


I saw him speak once, in the marketplace near my home

And I have heard rumours about that week in Jerusalem

And if it’s true he's coming back to free us

Then the hardest part will be the waiting


author: A.A. Kostas
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